Not for the weak-eared

I think that this song is awesome. However, it's considerably heavy. Even for me. So don't say that you haven't been warned.

/People can only judge what they see - Xonok

A screaming story

People like things that they can understand.
Often they even love things that they would hate if they didn't know.
I've realized, that I've come to this point with screaming(musically).

I was perhaps 12 when my sister's boyfriend showed me slipknot. He had showed a few songs when I said that it's too heavy for me. What I mean't was the screaming.
Then he showed me Duality.
This sort of opened my eyes.

 A little at first, but eventually I was with Escape the fate.

Then some months past that I couldn't really say much about. The next point that I remember clearly is that Ronnu showed me some bands that I considered very heavy at that point. It's amazing, because... I don't think so anymore.
Among them was Black Veil Brides. I especially disliked this one. However, that was only until I found out who their singer really is as a person.
Black Veil Brides is said to be named like that because the singer is religious. A black veil bride is a nun - a person that has given up all earthly pleasures to reach higher goals. It sort of made me realize who I'm dealing with. I got MENTALIZED... Umm, okay then. Well I found out his mentality... End of story.

After that point I came back to escape the fate(and some others that I hadn't listened much to), but this time the table was turned. This time the screaming brought me back. Why? Because screaming clears out the mess that always exists in a human mind and THAT makes it possible for people to really hear the beautifully sang lyrics. Those that aren't screamed...

Now I am training my voice. Both for singing normally and screaming. While searching for help in youtube I came across this. Which is, at the moment, the one I consider one of the best.

 I guess someone knows a lot more about me know. I hate mysticism... as long as I'm not the one creating it :D

Change

I feel that a change is impending. What's yet to find out is what that means.

I saw the Nymph once again and probably for the last time in a long period. It was worth it, though, as I might be able to have peace thanks to this. So insideish talk...

Btw, stereotypes aren't always wrong. It's just that nowadays new stereotypes are forming. People are mixing up both mentally and physically. It's just a matter of time until things seem to make sense once again.

What about me? I'm chill.

What is Eurondar?

Since this is the name of my blog I can bet that many have wondered about this. I've decided that I'll just write it all down.

First of all, Eurondar is my dreamland. It's completely separate from any real world object and rule.

I am Xonok of Eurondar. Thus, I am an Endorian. Simply because Eurondarian sounds awkward to me. Endorian can mean anything that comes from that world. In my case it's the mindset - My thoughts seem as if they were from a different world.

Don't know what more to write.

Just wondering...

I think I shouldn't be so... low? I don't know what the word is for that. What I mean is that I don't think I should be so modest. It's stopping me from succeeding in quite about everything. I lack the confidence.
Yes, I might seem like a very active and daring person, but I really ain't. I'm socially active, but not ambitious enough.
Today I discovered it in a quite unexpected way.
I got really angry at a certain person. Most will never see what I do when I'm angry, as there's only 2 people that can considerably disturb me.
Anyways, when it was over once again I noticed, that my voice is a lot closer to bass. I also had less trouble with pronouncing some letters that I usually can't pronounce very well in English.
I really should get a voice recorder... Then I could really know how I sound. Currently I simply don't know and thus may sometimes be hard to understand.

The love of my life!

I would of never thought that I could play an instrument any time near, but fate plays tricks on us I guess. Guitars are amazing! I got my hands on one at my girlfriend's place yesterday. I couldn't do much, but it was awesome. I have tried piano, flute and a few other instruments, but with this guitar I really felt that it's for me. And i felt that I improved fast within the next few hours.
I am definitely getting a guitar someday. Someday soon.

Also, I am once again returning to the same music that I used to listen to a few years ago. This one is quite good in my opinion:

Guitar is now the love of my life.

Estonian

See on seni ainus eestikeelne postitus ja nii see ilmselt ka jääb.
Minu kohta, et:
Ma olen 16-aastane poiss. Äärmiselt rahulik ja vist ka maheda häälega(ise määrata on keeruline).
Mul ei ole vähimaidki eelarvamusi soo, vanuse, religiooni ega millegi muu taolise suhtes.
Ma olen selline inimene, kellega saab rääkida ükskõik millest. Absoluutselt kõigest.
Juhuks kui keegi tahab rääkida, siis mu MSN on kaarel29@hot.ee