The songs of life

What if there's a song playing in my heart? Then this is reality. What if our hearts are just toys? Then this is reality. No, i don't know what i'd like to write. I'll just do.
Some...thing i have written recently(only the first is from the past):
What is it that matters to me? I don't know... Being better is the answer to anything. I want to be better, as it's the only thing that relieves the pain of knowing all there is to know about me...and a few other people. That, is my pain, not theirs.
Ever found it funny that people have no idea about who they are and what's going on? Well i think it's just miserable.

Out of the deep now. My heart is filled with love. That love is nameless, just as is the Light.  The Light shows us the way, whether we want it or not. The Light is made by Fire. Made by me..
I am fire. I am the storm. I am not the wind. I am some more...

Does all that imply that i have a large ego? Nope, as i don't like being better. I just have no other reasonable choice.
The verses that haunt you. The verses that fill you. The verses of life. The verses that kill you...

Someone is having a good time. Oh right, it's me...

I am happy, as the songs in my heart are playing loudly. I feel creative, as i am being all i can be.

Should i stop? Should i not? No idea. It's all a faithless stunt. (No, i don't even know what i mean)

There's things that only i can do... such as understanding my jokes. But i'm not perfect, so sometimes i can't even do that.

Someone has been getting creative. I guess it's me. Now if i could only just do something reasonable with that...

The verses in my heart are haunting....

My own heaven in hell

Today(yesterday) i felt bad at least half of the time, yet, most of the time i was happy. I really am a masochist, i guess.
Also, about examinations;
Today there was an english examination and i got an A(5). I really would of never thought that i'd guess that much. Today in the morning i was a tad bit nervous. In a way, cos i am actually NOT able to be nervous about things like that.
Anyways, when the oral(last) part of the examination was over the teacher smiled. I knew that i had done at least this thing right. It was quite a nice surprise later on to that day that i got such a good mark.
What more is there to say? (Exactly what i said in the examination)
Bye.

Emptiness that haunts the soul...

Haven't posted here for quite a while. People keep leaving. Also, one of my uncles was found dead recently. He was just 23.
I feel empty, but not because of that. I hadn't seen that uncle for years anyway.

I've noticed, that noone has visited the blog for over a week. Probably because i hadn't posted?

Some facts about me:
There's periods in my life, when i eat a lot and periods, when i eat very little. Neither of which affect my weight(And no, i am not fat at all).
I like the second ones more.
I have next to no feelings in some things(my uncle).
I barely believe in true love(Muse is the reason why i believe at all).
I am not religious.
My IQ is far over average.
My EQ is under average. 

School again

Yesterday:
I feel awful. I haven't got much of an idea why. Maybe it's because i did go to school this week(3 days already). So i haven't been absent, just late once(missed the train). Tomorrow i won't go to school, or if, then only to fix a few marks.
Today:
So eventually i didn't even fix any marks, didn't go there at all. But not i feel, better, maybe i'll manage to get to school tomorrow?
Anyways, enough of school.
...
And i´m out of ideas.

Away

I'm basically out of any action that involves computers for a week or so. But you can still call me of course.
Also, if anyone's interested about a space game(in browser), then check this out:
http://eu2.looki.com/game.php?u=5356199
Dunno what else should i write, so bye. 

Sins of a solar empire

So now i've been lazy again and haven't posted. Oh well, i'm here now.
Don't have much idea about what i should write though.
*Sins of a solar empire is awesome(a lot better than i thought)
*Met some nice new people.
*Haven't worked much on WC3 maps. Mainly because Ring of Realms has over 16 000 trees(makes me lag in the editor) and i haven't figured out the cure yet. (No, i won't make the map smaller!)
The terrain so far does look great though. Perhaps i should show, but not this time.

About sins of a solar empire.
This is a real time strategy game in space. There's 4 types of ships:
Fighter squadron-practically free, what you build is things that carry them.
Frigate-cheap, but relatively weak. Most need to be researched. At first you have 3, which are scout, light frigate and colony ship.
Cruiser-better than frigate, about 2 times as good. All of them are researched.
Capital ship-the most powerful. Costs about as much as 10 frigates and is about as strong as 7-8. BUT, their high survivability is very useful. Their weakness is having low mobility. A player can have up to 20 of them.
Capital ship types are:
Battleship
Gunship(less power than battleship, but more range)
Battlecruiser(2 versions)
Carrier
Also, unlike other games, such as master of orion and galactic civilizations II, in this game colony ships are not used up. And also, in this game it doesn't take mindnumbingly long to build up new colonies, so, having weak ones is your own problem. It's relatively easy to protect your area and there's also multiple ways:
1.Stationary defenses-maxed amount of turrets/hangars in border colonies. Quite effective, but will eventually be torn down.
2.Fleet-if someone sends even a small fleet, then attack it until it retreats. But don't stop there or they come back. In this game only capital ships can fire while retreating, so keep pounding and you'll quite likely conquer a few colonies. What makes it differ, is:
1.Slow pace. This is caused by ships being slow and doing little damage compared to how many hits they can take.
2.Extremely balanced, while still allowing many different strategies(unlike starcraft).
I did not go through any tutorials, as i can learn new games extremely fast. So, on my first game i struggled to find out what to do and how this game works.  I built lots and lots of frigates(eventually i had over 50). Also i made a capital ship:the Akan Carrier.
At first it seemed like computer players are cheating all the time, as there were enemies everywhere. However, i found out, that it's just neutral colonies(nothing comes with no effort here).
I was also attacked by blue, but he ran right away, so i started chasing. I blasted my way after him and destroyed least 3 colonies, while building more and more frigates. Eventually i blew his capital ship. A bit later he brought a larger fleet and wiped mine -_-. So i started again.
Now i've played about 10-15 games of it and am doing a lot better. It turns out that using early push tactics makes you very weak and bringing a player down right away is next to impossible.

So, it's a game where my favourite type of warfare, guerilla, is actually viable, which is very rare in RTS games. 10/10, a very fine game.

Points

Today i have done some stuff that's at least a little bit interesting.
I have slept 3 hours, but i am still full of energy. I guess sleeping is tiring. 
I was bored in maths, so i drew a 6-dimensional shape(based off of the cube)

Something like this


Also i have been working on my zombie map

Also i have been listening to music(as always).
Out of ideas now. Gbye!