Once again about writing

I'm constantly wondering about publishing. It's not that i had anything to publish, i just want to know what would be the best way of doing that. Once i think i'm ready.
So yesterday i made an account on booksie. Here's my bio that i put there:

I have little idea of who i am, but i guess everyone else knows even less of me. So here it goes.
I am a precocious(Is that how it's said? Or should i say early?) person. People consider me smart. I consider myself lazy.
I am always looking for new friends. Especially those that don't like themselves. I believe that self-criticism is a very good sign about one's personality.
My blog probably tells a lot more about how i think, so i'll just skip to the writing part.
I started to write quite accidentially. Sometimes i just get that certain feeling. It stops me from sleeping or doing anything else, until i wait it out or write.
My first stories were about the history of certain fictional races. I can show them if anyone wishes to see.
I write in a mix of english and estonian. After that i create 2 versions of each story(if i bother)- english and estonian. Hopefully both equally good.
Now i am writing fantasy and science fiction. Currently the favorite character that i've created is called Martin Overmoon.
I think i'm a bit off. I'll update this bio when i find a better time. Currently i'm getting distracted.
P.S That picture of me is old.

You can look it up yourself: www.booksie.com/Xonok

Once a writer, always a writer

I have finally started to write again. If you wish to see what i have written, then say so.
I'm happy.

I've been doing surprisingly well lately. I now have a girfriend once more and my grades are bearable. Actually, about school, it's even too easy so far. I guess highschool really does fit for me. I had wondered about it before, but now i can believe it does.

I don't have much idea of what more to write.
In short, everything has gone perfect for the last few weeks.
Oh and my girlfriend also helps me with developing games. She's really wonderful in every meaning of the word.
/What more is there to want?

School again

So it was the first day of school again.
Nothing special, though.
As boring as always.

Although there was something to see - 2 new classrooms have been made, but both of them are missing a wall, so it looks quite awkward.
If anyone really wants to know, then ask me.
I'm bored. Ciao.

Creep Culture

I know i haven't written anything here for a long time. Either because not bothering or simply because i don't know what to write. Well, it doesn't matter why.
So now i've thought that i should just do what many people have done before - Write about my thoughts.

Yesterday i coined a term(in my mind) for people that make themselves look ugly, or creepy on purpose. The creep culture.
I haven't got much of an idea where it started or why, but i certainly understand it. There's more than one kind of beauty and if done right, then anything can be beautiful. Including creepiness. The question is just in which way.
Sidenote: Or perhaps they make themselves creepy to gain attention? Well definitely not all of them, but some.

I've failed to write ANYTHING long for months now. It's an annoying fact. At least i keep trying.
Maybe i should start translating my stories to english.
Actually i've tried doing that with one story, it's still unfinished.
Still, i have to keep trying. I think i'll do that right now.
Bye to anyone who might read.

The songs of life

What if there's a song playing in my heart? Then this is reality. What if our hearts are just toys? Then this is reality. No, i don't know what i'd like to write. I'll just do.
Some...thing i have written recently(only the first is from the past):
What is it that matters to me? I don't know... Being better is the answer to anything. I want to be better, as it's the only thing that relieves the pain of knowing all there is to know about me...and a few other people. That, is my pain, not theirs.
Ever found it funny that people have no idea about who they are and what's going on? Well i think it's just miserable.

Out of the deep now. My heart is filled with love. That love is nameless, just as is the Light.  The Light shows us the way, whether we want it or not. The Light is made by Fire. Made by me..
I am fire. I am the storm. I am not the wind. I am some more...

Does all that imply that i have a large ego? Nope, as i don't like being better. I just have no other reasonable choice.
The verses that haunt you. The verses that fill you. The verses of life. The verses that kill you...

Someone is having a good time. Oh right, it's me...

I am happy, as the songs in my heart are playing loudly. I feel creative, as i am being all i can be.

Should i stop? Should i not? No idea. It's all a faithless stunt. (No, i don't even know what i mean)

There's things that only i can do... such as understanding my jokes. But i'm not perfect, so sometimes i can't even do that.

Someone has been getting creative. I guess it's me. Now if i could only just do something reasonable with that...

The verses in my heart are haunting....

My own heaven in hell

Today(yesterday) i felt bad at least half of the time, yet, most of the time i was happy. I really am a masochist, i guess.
Also, about examinations;
Today there was an english examination and i got an A(5). I really would of never thought that i'd guess that much. Today in the morning i was a tad bit nervous. In a way, cos i am actually NOT able to be nervous about things like that.
Anyways, when the oral(last) part of the examination was over the teacher smiled. I knew that i had done at least this thing right. It was quite a nice surprise later on to that day that i got such a good mark.
What more is there to say? (Exactly what i said in the examination)
Bye.

Emptiness that haunts the soul...

Haven't posted here for quite a while. People keep leaving. Also, one of my uncles was found dead recently. He was just 23.
I feel empty, but not because of that. I hadn't seen that uncle for years anyway.

I've noticed, that noone has visited the blog for over a week. Probably because i hadn't posted?

Some facts about me:
There's periods in my life, when i eat a lot and periods, when i eat very little. Neither of which affect my weight(And no, i am not fat at all).
I like the second ones more.
I have next to no feelings in some things(my uncle).
I barely believe in true love(Muse is the reason why i believe at all).
I am not religious.
My IQ is far over average.
My EQ is under average.